My first reaction when I learned that my ex-husband found my little oasis was that I needed to begin yet ANOTHER place for my musings however, I said fuck it. If he is so inclined to torture himself then so be it. I shouldn't have to alter/edit/withhold because if his morbid curiosity. So here it is. Here I am. No more secrets.

The VP my friend wants to set me up with will be in town in a couple of weeks. He's 40, never been married, a triathlete, into music and VERY wealthy which BEGS the question, what the hell is wrong with him? I am approaching with extreme trepidation however an affluent VP that lives in another state could very well be what the doctor ordered. I wonder if he has a boat? Does that make me shallow? Although money will not be what attracts me nor will it be a factor that keeps me, it IS an added bonus and I would be lying if I said otherwise.

Are men just as worried about rejection which is the reason behind their (seemingly) indifference towards us? Do they play the part of asshole because if they don't the fickle female isn't attracted to them or am I extending credit when credit isn't due? If however that IS the case can men and women PLEASE have a meeting of the minds to discuss our similarities because how much nicer would it be to not have to work so goddamn hard at keeping your sanity.

I'm not feeling this tonight...